Posts Tagged ‘Staying at Home’

I know I’ve talked about work before.  How much I enjoy my co-workers and what I do at my paying job.  It’s all true – I’ve been fortunate that way.  We’re also building a house which, FYI, isn’t a cheap undertaking no matter how much you’re doing yourselves.  So now might be the total wrong time to be resigning from my job in order to stay home full time with my girls, a stay at home mom being probably THE hardest job I’ve ever  had in my life.  Why in the world would I do such a crazy thing?!

I just look at these two little girls awestruck.  I cannot believe how quickly time is going by.  They really do grow up so fast.

I don’t want to miss a second of it.

It’s intimating though.  I don’t know if I have the patience or stamina to be a full time stay at home mom.  I want to make the most of this time right now but basking in the glow of their presence doesn’t seem too productive or especially enriching for them.  Daughter #1 is getting smarter by the second, I honestly don’t know how that is happening but she’s always surprising me.  Daughter #2 at 4 months of age is, well ,already 4 months old!

And to not physically go to a job.  Well, that’s not an especially natural feeling.  My paying job has always been a part of my identity and I do think I owe it to myself to acknowledge and mourn that as a loss because I enjoyed my job.  I’ll admit that I’m noticing a lot less stress about trying to get things done before going back to work or the clean-up/recovery after my work days.

Being able to stay at home with my girls is a gift, I am lucky to be home with them, and it will take sacrifice and it is also a job.  I don’t want to drift through my days with them and watch time pass us by.  I want our days to have purpose.  I’m just not sure how to go about creating that purpose quite yet…

Wish me luck!


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